I am naiinis, natatawa, naiiyak. Today is payday pero what the heck, wala na ko money agad! Sige let me explain how the nothingness that is called my paycheck came to be what it is ---nothing.
Naiinis. I got sick June 14, 15, 16, and 18. 17 kasi I forced myself to come to work pero hindi kinaya ng powers ko so absent ulit ako ng 18. My probationary period ends July 11, so I was a few weeks short diba? Nakakainis because the 4 days I was out they deducted from my salary today. Naiinis ako sa virus that decided to drop in on my system kasi hindi man lang nakapaghintay na ma-regular ako para sana I was entitled to sick leave. Bummer.
Natatatawa. I cannot help but find the funny side of the situation.. imagine mo kasi, payday is the most awaited day every month for the financially-needy (yep that's me!). Funny really because I'm a bit weirded out na despite na kumonti ang money ko this month, I don't feel the burden of it.. maybe because I realize I have so much more to be thankful for: my family, my friends, my bebski, my health.. so so so much more!
Naiiyak. Medyo nakakaiyak lang kasi dadaan lang sa kamay ko huhuhu. Actually, hindi nga literally dadaan sa kamay ko because puro fund-transfer lang mangyayari. X amount fund transfer to bills, savings, etc. Meron naman matitira kaya lang waaaaaaaah I need to adjust my expenses to stretch what's left of my *sniff* salary for the month.
But overall, it's ok lah!!! Money is just money! It comes, it goes, pero it's so insignificant when you are thankful for the air you breathe, for the love of your family, for the laughter with friends. Life is Good. God is Good.
P. S. Funny si allan I SMSed him kasi nung nagdadrama ako, he replied: "wag ka maiinis beb at alam mo naman na andito lang sugar daddy mo...Inception??? :-) my treat with popcorn pa..." See why despite not having money I'm still thankful? Not really because nagpresenta si Allan to be my sugar daddy (pero I'll take him up on his offer na din hehe), but because I feel so loved kahit I don't have the moolah. :)
